High Fashion Style on Clifton Downs.

I wanted to post a share to a throwback to 2013. This goes back to July 2013, when I did a photoshoot with James at Tangled Visions Photography. James also styled my hair, and my friend, Ashleigh did my make up. We had to improvised as we couldn’t find a blue lipstick. It was made from eyeshadow and sanitizer. It was a bit uncomfortable for reasons. The location for this high end inspired shoot was Clifton Downs as a main, we even went as far as the Clifton Suspension Bridge.

I enjoy looking back on these behind the scenes photos. There’s so much joy in my face.

 

Such a great afternoon. The finished images are works of art. They will forever be my favourite sets of pictures.

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~RebeccaKLxo

Doctor Strange: Film Review

I finally got a chance to watch Doctor Strange last night. Being a self confessed nerd I had very strong mixed feelings about the film. I love all things comics regardless of publishing company, but because batman is my all time favourite, I’m a bit more of a DC fan. Even though Warner Bros are executing the movies. 

I was also really sceptical about the casting choice. I’m not usually a fan of Benedict Cumberbatch, with exception to his villain role in Star Trek. But I thought he worked the character of Dr Stephen Strange well. Especially the passion after the accident, it gives you an insight to how an individual can lose themselves after a trauma. The only thing I didn’t like was he modelled the portrayal of the character too much after Tony Stark in terms of arrogance and ego. Although I think it worked in Benedict’s favour.  

On the other hand I was not a fan of Rachel Mcadams in the film. Being so used to her in romantic comedies made her feel out of place in this action film.

Overall I really enjoyed the film more then I thought I would. I do highly recommend Dr Strange to all moviegoers! Whether your a fan of Marvel or just magical action films.
~RebeccaKLxo

Mental Scars Last a Lifetime.

This post will need a foremost warning before getting into more details. It’s going to include some pretty heavy topics, that’s affected my life. I don’t usually want to talk about this, as I’m trying to move on, 3 years later. But I’ve decided to write this, just in case it helps any other individuals who have their own mental scars, if not the exact same as mine.

It’s been prompted by my therapist, to try and immortalize the events causing my scars in writing. I’ve also choosing to do this, after theoretically speaking, reopening these scars, opening up about such events to fellow work colleagues. Which I ain’t going to lie, I have been finding it difficult to close the wound after.

I should probably get into what caused me to be so mentally and pretty emotionally broken. For most of my teenage years, to be exact from 16 years old, through to 19 years old, I was subject to a pretty abusive relationship. Pretty abusive is the light term, I use to describe it. I’d include a full list, of exactly what happened, but that is not something I want to include, otherwise this post will be far too long! I’ll also refuse to show anyone the case photos of the injuries. The right side of my face, was beaten so much, that I’ve lost my peripheral sight on the right side, as well as having that side brow bone bruised until it was pretty much black, dislocated my jaw on that side, bruise, cuts and my hearing on that side isn’t the best. That’s just the injuries to my face. I still have no idea who I’m looking at in the mirror every morning. My body also suffered, bruises and cuts, not to mention broken wrists, dislocated knees but my ribs took most of the hit. So much as to the bottom ribs had to be removed, repaired and put back in. The scariest nightmare I still get, is being thrown into a door, and the guy punching the wall, right by my head.  I pretty much lived in the hospital, so much so when I left they let me keep my blanket from the hospital. I’m not allowed to take part in any close combat sports. Though I know risk, with my new love for boxing. The abuse equally included verbal insults, degrading comments and threats. The biggest threat, which went as close to being threatened with a knife, was wanting to give me a glasgow smile. This is probably why now I don’t often smile unless I need too.

Rape within a relationship is often overlooked, but it does happen. I’m not staying on this topic for long, but rape combined with forced miscarriages will destroy any 19 year old. It certainly affects your emotional capacity.

I haven’t and won’t name and shame, they’re now in prison for 10 years, as of 2013. But obviously this has mentally scarred me for life, there’s no denying that. But the fight I battle everyday, in the earlier years suicidal thoughts, anger, hurting myself. Now it’s mainly just hurting myself. Some people think once your injuries healed it’s fine, but because mine’s linked to my mental health, phantom pain is real. It’s what scares me the most, knowing that 20 years down the line, I could still feel the pain. It also annoys me that I have to go to a trauma therapist twice a week, I don’t like the word trauma. I don’t see it as trauma, I see it as extremely unfortunate. This includes seeing a counsellor twice a week also. All of which is court mandated. I was on an array of medication, but now don’t take anything, because they didn’t help, they just masked it.

It’s been three years since successfully getting them locked up, and I’m on the outside happy. I’m in a long term loving relationship, which has future prospects. I can drive, have great friends, and actually enjoy going to work. My tattoo I wear on my chest, proudly, stands for truth and justice. As the truth came out, and justice is served. Mentally there’s still a long way to go, but as cliche as it is, I am stronger now. It’s also lead me to the pageant life, which has been gradually teaching me to love myself, and exploring more into modelling as an hobby.

Mental Scars do Last a Lifetime. They’ll never go away, or heal invisibly. You just learn to move on and cope with them in your mind forever. If I could get away with murder, this is the one person I would tear apart.

I hope this has at least helped someone out there.

~RebeccaKLxo

The Accountant: Film Review.

After first seeing the trailer for The Accountant back in September. I said numerous times seeing the trailers before other films, and every time I walked past the film posters, I told my boyfriend that we’re going to watch it when it came out. It annoyed him a lot, but today we got that chance! No spoilers ahead!!!

I must say, I did really enjoy this film. I love Ben Affleck as an actor, he has done some great films; from Good Will Hunting, Chasing Amy to more recently Gone Girl and I thought he did a decent job as Batman. This is a film he can add to his great film resume. It was good to see him play such a challenging and complex character with autism. This of which is close to me, as my younger brother has Autism. I’m not really a fan of Jon Bernthal, probably because of his portrayal of Shane in The Walking Dead. Saying that, his portrayal of the older brother was great. Alongside the rest of the cast and supporting case.

Not going to write about the plot or anything, as it’s just came out! Personally for me, one of Warner Bros’ best films I’ve seen to date. I do really recommend seeing this film when you get the chance too!

~RebeccaKLxo

Madame Tussauds & London🍂🇬🇧

Finally managed to get to visit Madame Tussauds during an impromptu road trip to London. I must say despite the cons of; how busy the capital is and the quality of driving in the city. The autumnal colours compliment the city well! 

Madame Tussauds is a wax work museum. A very popular one at that. We arrived at the building at 11am, to be greeted with a queue and a waiting time of 2 and a half to 3 hours. The phenomenal artistry and workmanship inside is well worth any amount of waiting time. 

I can’t choose just one highlight from my day here. It was great to see they moved apart Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie figures apart after news of their split. But also equally made my day seeing a young boy walk up to the Justin Bieber wax figure and putting their middle finger up to it. 

Here’s a selection of pictures from the day: full album is up on my personal Facebook account: facebook.com/Rebeccakatielouisex


I do recommend a visit! 

~RebeccaKLxo